being another one.

everyone has ambitions which they know they'll never achieve unless they try shit hard.

like mine. i dreamed of being an author. an awesome one like May Zhee. not one like Stephenie Meyer. she's like to the max awesome and successful. i'll never beat that for sure.

but now i know being an author isn't like, 'Oh, i wanna be an author when i grow up and become one that will never be forgotten in history.' then you start working on short stories. right, that's a perfect first step. you have to fix your grammar and your english must be 20/20 intelligent.
but as far as i know, if i try hard enough, i can only achieve on getting second in an essay writing competition. because, to improve my dumb grammar, it takes studying. and i hate studying. i tried reading the dictionary and i remembered some words. but the next day, 'What the hell is that word? i didn't even know it existed.' then start looking it up in the dictionary again. and forget it again.

and i tried to write my own stories before. yes, i have a lot of ideas at first but then POOF! right in the middle of it, i have no ideas left. it takes time, i know. but i'm impatient, duh?
that is why, i found a perfect way to solve my stupid problem.
write my own story when i feel like it, continue when i feel like it and create a new one when i feel like it. don't go, 'OMG, i have an awesome new idea for a new story. wait, i haven't finish this and that one yet...' and didn't take down my new idea.

Try Things Fresh.

OR i could just write it and share it with my friends. or maybe try a new fan fiction and see what others think about my stupid grammar and vocabulary.

Just do it.

That's a Nike quote i love. Lols.
Ugh. I gotta go study, AGAIN. for Geografi and Sejarah. My two most hated subject, aside from KH, of course. by the way, to all those ambitious people out there, follow Nike's quote. take the first step and go from small steps to small steps to amaze the world. you know you have it, you just gotta show it. just try shit hard. ;]

rach signing off ~